Confession....

i once had a relationship when i met her for the first time.....but then it became a L D R cause i realised where she was (>_<)...... so im now here in the u.k. and shes over at the other side of the world (australia, brisbane) pretty far eh? haha sometimes i consider those to be the most happiest moments of my life....yet sometimes i cant help but feel sad ......i really do still kinda miss her ( ; _ ; ) ..... i remember our relationship lasted for about 1 yr and a half...... but i eventually decided to give up and let her go..... cause i felt guilty for "keeping" her to myself....i mean like i couldnt give her the things like i used to....i couldnt perform person to person things i was just a voice on the other side of a computer monitor...id walk around in parks and id see couples everywhere...i couldnt give her anything like that...i felt like i was selfish trying to hold on to something i couldnt even reach anymore........ truth is i couldnt say it..... so i decided to just ignore her.....i quit speaking to her on msn and social networks and emails and etc...... and till this very day i still regret it....in fact after just a month i wanted to get in contact again...but i fell ill and had to remain in hospital for long periods of time.....so i couldnt even if i wanted.......
several years later i found her again on facebook..... and after long period of time.....i gathered the courage to speak to her again.....and so now we're just friends.........its good enough for me and im happy again that shes returned into my life...... just as friends though......and to be honest im satisfied with just that ..... or am i really?